Alright Neesha, Sarah, first off I don't write in Maria's Journal, I have my own for that. As for the journal entry itself. It was her's genuine, its how she felt, and a friend wrote it out for her while she did other things more important then the continuation of this. I was @ another location at the time. Driving home from school if you must know.

As for being a Saint...a saint has to perform 3 miracles, *whether they are during their lifetime or not*, not only that but the would-be saint has to be recognized by the Catholic Church as doing something genuinely good for all people, and miracles have to be proven as miracles.

I say this because I have not done any of these. I've tried helping all sorts of people, and they usually reject help because of pride or they think I have some alterior motive to my methods. So I now just focus my abilities to those I know and care for. I am no saint...but to fair, that doesn't mean I won't become one...Am I conceded when I say this? No. Will I become one...probably not.

When I wrote my post, I did take your side of it...there is no complexity unless you can give me proof of such complex relationships...I find and feel that relationships in the family are far far more complex and judging by this...if friendships and family's both deal with the interaction of people among people...friendships are never and can't ever, be as complicated as family relationships...It's simple deduction.

I feel its only fair you take my side of the story as well...you seem to consider me less than human...a "thing"...there is no possible way unless you have Godlike knowledge, that you could possible judge me without even knowing what I look like...how I behave...my beliefs, my morals. You don't know those...you simply pass judgement before you get the full story from me...you've had this opinion of me from the getgo. Why should I consider your's at all? Infact, if I'm to consider your side, I have to take into account that you judge people before you know them...did I not mention this in my previous post?...I believe I did...I wanted that part of you to change...make you better. I never needed to take your side of the story...I am critizing your methods of how you deal with friends and other people...nothing else...how do you justify demanding her to break up with me when Maria didn't tell you about me as soon as possible?...How do you exactly? Do you even know why you she didn't tell you at first?...its because you're far too judgemental of everyone you see, she took what you do at lunch...what you do to her...and applied the situation with me...she took your habits and applied it to the situation...and found that no matter what boyfriend she had...you would find disapproval...she never wanted your consent in this...she found someone...whether its right or wrong you should know from general knowledge that sometimes people have to make their own mistakes...you said you couldn't be friends with her cause she "lied/betrayed" to you by not telling you about me...its her business and her's alone what she tells and doesn't tell you, (most friends would be happy for their friends recent hook-up)if you weren't such a critical person about people's flaws maybe she would be more receptive to you and tell you...your opinions are unfair...they lack any evidence. You apply your lifestyle to everyone like its some cookie cutter style, the model method...what everyone should do...everyone is different...I tried to tell you this but you didn't get it. You never want to give anyone a chance...I'm not giving you one in return...its only fair...its turnabout...

Your methods of friendship are clearly visible to everyone, you prefere friends you can dominate...its obvious from how you behave to me...and even more so to maria...you hate it when you have no control...thats you Neesha...In a nutshell...am I being fair in this?...yup...why? because everyone I speak to about you says the same exact thing...and most eye-witness statements are always different from the other eye-witness statement...they have known you for awhile...its simple as that...

The world is never so complex as you think it...you make it complex and sow the seeds of your own destruction in doing so...I feel sorry for you...I really do...but I've done all I can...you can either get angry at this or take a good honest look at yourself and see if you can deal with a change in your life...

Check your email.



Also, nobody loves you.

You know, alittletenchi, you're criticisms of kenokipuff's art would be taken more seriously if you actually posted some of your own artwork so that we can judge what "real" artwork is. Though I've noticed that people who so blatantly criticize others tend to have no artistic talent themselves.

And as for your petty attacks on this person, I think that they more accuratly describe YOU as an evil person. You're attacking another person verbally without provokation, and repeatedly. Sounds pretty evil doesn't it?

Though if you think about how much interest you're putting in another female that left you, maybe there is more to this than simply concern about their life (otherwise you wouldn't be attacking them). Maybe you're jealous of this persons relationship with a .. man.

Are you per chance a Homosexual?

wow, i thought you died a horrible death by now.
nice to know your still the same old hypocritical ass i remember.
isn't it nice to know that maria has a life of her own now...without you.

question though:
why do you harass someone who finally found happiness?

well just thought i would drop by and see your supposed art page.

toodles

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